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Sincerely explore for yourself, are you here or not? Are you in your body or oblivious, or only aware of parts of it? When I say, "Are you in your body?" I mean, "Are you completely filling your body?" I want to know whether you are in your feet, or just have feet. Do you live in them, or are they just things you use when you walk? Are you in your belly, or do you just know vaguely that you have a belly? Or is it just for food? 
Are you really in your hands, or do you move them from a distance? Are you present in your cells, inhabiting and filling your body? If you aren’t in your body, what significance is there in your experience this moment? Are you preparing, so that you can be here in the future? Are you setting up conditions by saying to yourself, "When such and such happens I’ll have time, I’ll be here." If you are not here, what are you saving yourself for? 
by Hameed Ali
The House of Belonging by David Whyte

I awoke
 this morning
 in the gold light
 turning this way
 and that

thinking for
 a moment
 it was one
 day
 like any other.

But
 the veil had gone
 from my
 darkened heart
 and
 I thought

it must have been the quiet
 candlelight
 that filled my room,

it must have been
 the first
 easy rhythm
 with which I breathed
 myself to sleep,

it must have been
 the prayer I said
 speaking to the otherness
 of the night.

And
 I thought
 this is the good day
 you could
 meet your love,

this is the gray day
 someone close
 to you could die.

This is the day
 you realize
 how easily the thread
 is broken
 between this world
 and the next

and I found myself
 sitting up
 in the quiet pathway
 of light,

the tawny
 close grained cedar
 burning round
 me like fire
 and all the angels of this housely
 heaven ascending
 through the first
 roof of light
 the sun has made.

This is the bright home
 in which I live,
 this is where
 I ask
 my friends
 to come,
 this is where I want
 to love all the things
 it has taken me so long
 to learn to love.

This is the temple
 of my adult aloneness
 and I belong
 to that aloneness
 as I belong to my life.

There is no house
 like the house of belonging.

Homecoming

"What’s happening now in culture, in the feminist movement and in the consciousness movement, is that people are slowly moving toward awareness of their essential selves, which feels so liberating to me. Because doing so leaves room for feelings and proprioceptive embodiment, mindfulness, all of these fantastic words that basically describe the idea of us coming home to ourselves; coming home to our bodies; not having to split off; not having to fight, flight, or freeze; healing traumas; recognizing what the traumas even are that keep us from living in a connected, inspired, and fulfilling way; and making a safe space physically, emotionally, psychologically, and spiritually for this inquiry to happen."

Alanis Morissette in an interview with 1440

Multitude, is you

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It is completely natural to morph from one version of yourself to another, to experience the shades of your grey, the bursts of your color.

Sometimes I'm so silly. Can't keep it together, acting like a big kid, bubbles and chalk with me everywhere I go.
Playful Heather

Then I get real confident and chatty. This happens out in public a lot, socializing. I love people and have meaningful things to say. Speaking with excitement and interest drives me to others, thirsty for connection.
Relating Heather

An intimate and exposed nature comes out around those I trust most. The soft and sensual side reveals iself. Innocence of the raw me takes over while listening to the hearts of others.
Vulnerable Heather

Flavor, flaaaaav! I like to rap, blair hip hop and involve my spirit in as much of my life as possible. Spice it up and enjoy moments for the fullness that they contain.
Soul Heather

And when push comes to shove, l have something to say. Bold and committed to justice for all. Which means standing up for people when they are being slandered and slaughtered left and right. Being the protector of hearts, including your own. Being strong and saying what needs to be said.
Real Heather

There are so many pit stops I've taken along the way, illuminating different rooms, on various floors, with windows and doors leading to new places, all within my emotional, spiritual and physical anatomy.

That's pretty vast.

We're pretty vast.

Get fascinated by what's within, the differences *aka your gifts* and start sharing them with the world.

You contain a spectrum and throughout life you will find yourself dancing in various shoes, smiling at new faces and becoming the person you are meant to be.

While you're here, you have yourself.

Might as well start the journey of looking within... and make it count.

DO YOU

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You're going to change about a million times over and if the crowd in your head (church, school, romantic partner, parents, friends, co workers) dictates who you should be and how you should be, you won't feel right, something will feel off.

The only way to discover who you are is to remove all the noise and be with silence. Not just once but time and time again. To listen to the dialogue of your own thoughts, your fears, your darkness. To watch the movie that is you as it shifts from scene to scene.

Sharing who you really are and who you keep becoming is the hardest job around. There aren't external success meters that inform you of pay off. Being you through and through is the reward.

A few weeks into 27 and I feel so different than I did last year. The way I want to move through the world, the way I choose to show up, what I focus on and what doesn't matter to me anymore is new terrain.

The journey of your life is meant to be just that. A trek filled with twists and turns, peaks and valleys, new sights and understandings. Don't let the illusion of complacency keep you from exploring the fullness that IS you. Stay committed to the journey, stay brave in the quest, stay honest in reflection and stay open to unlimited possibility.