Cleanse my Heart

and cleanse my hands

help me be a good, good man

forever I am yours

forever You are mine

return you to the Heart

return you Here again

I leave it all to You

my eternal friend

[The Return by Trevor Hall]

I've been listening to Trevor Hall for years now and didn't realize until recently how much his songs, his life and his sharing, impacted and shaped my life. So subtle. As it often goes for so much of what we experience. Being pushed, nudged through and through in small moments- pushed, nudged a little closer to Love. So special! If you've never heard his music, I would definitely check him out. He's the best. Links below vv

"Indigo"
by Trevor Hall

Ayo ayo ayo ayo nah

I've been up with grandma she told me about dreaming
Told me of that mystic water, told me of that tree
Don't you be afraid, my child
Don't you be afraid of what they say

Gotta get that owl medicine so they can't fool you
Go inside the heart and don't let all the dark thoughts school you
Don't you be afraid, my child
Don't you be afraid of what they say

I've got to go back to those skies indigo
Back to holy country roads
Back to what my sweet heart knows
I've got to play like a child in her lap
No defending no attack
I know the spirits got my back
Ayo ayo ayo ayo ayo ah
Ayo ayo ayo ayo ayo ah
Ayo ayo ayo ayo ayo ah

The story it continues to that island inner ocean
Way your song surrounds we were feeling sweet emotion
Don't you be afraid, my child
Don't you be afraid of what they say

We were staring into full moon eyes of white pueo
I could see the circle come around like a big halo
Don't you be afraid, my child
Don't you be afraid of what they say

I've got to go back to those skies indigo
Back to holy country roads
Back to what my sweet heart knows
I've got to play like a child in her lap
No defending no attack
I know the spirits got my back
Ayo ayo ayo ayo ah
Ayo ayo ayo ayo ah
Ayo ayo ayo ah

Well the story continues after all that we've been through
After time that we've past and we go fourth everlasting
Well the spirit been gracious
It been leading with patience
From the dream to the waking
Well we follow the sacred

And see who we really are
Who will it be
Where will it come from
What we really need
Everything surrender
Everything free
Give thanks for that owl medicine and see


Don't you be afraid nana
Don't you be afraid
Don't you be afraid nana
Don't you be afraid
I've got to go back to those skies indigo
Back to holy country roads
Back to what my sweet heart knows
I've got to play
Like a child in her lap
No defending no attack
I know the spirits got my back

Personal Note: Sometimes I'm afraid, afraid to share, curious if I should continue being so... real. One day with Trevor Hall on Spotify and I am reminded of how important it is to keep sharing pieces of you even when it's scary. Even when the very fabric seams to be unraveling.

Over the last 5 years I have changed, rather quickly, from one version of myself to the next, intrigued and enthusiastic for a better me with fuller understandings and richer experiences to bring about a connected us. So separated by fences, color, state lines and gender that we can't even listen. Worse than that, we don't want to listen. Obsessed and driven by desire to prove and state as matter of fact, humility has left the room completely and our hearts live in a cage locked up inside metal walls unable to be reached. We can't keep going on this disconnected from our neighbors, our people, ourselves.

No matter the landscape, circumstance, situation- everything is figure-out-able.

Warriors tonight in the Bay Area. Let's see what strength in numbers looks like.